As I sit here writing this at 5:20 in the morning, I realize that I should wait until I'm more awake to post it. I should probably check for clearness of thought and spelling since I am not a morning person. So, after a couple of corrections, here you go.
I was awakened around 4 a.m. with so many people on my mind. So, God and I chatted for a while [actually, I talked and God listened]. In case someone doesn't know, God is a great listener. He is always there and never too busy for me (or you). I prayed for friends who were hurting over lost loved ones. I prayed for friends who were sick, battle leukemia and kidney stones. I talked to God about Jeremy and myself for protection of our hearts, soul, mind and body. I asked for protection and health for my family. Finally, I prayed for my friends both old and new. All of these people are God-loving, bible reading people, and I'm thankful to have them in my life.
I often get so wrapped up in the hustle and bustle of life that I don't stop to adequately evaluate my life and where I am in it. I often just drift through from day to day without much thought. Since Mark died, I have submersed myself into church and ministry work, but sometimes God wants us to be still and listen! God knows that I am not good at that!!! But, I try. God knows that I'm not good at being still and listening because he made me and knows all my quirks. I believe by listening to him, we learn that he wants us to take steps out of our comfort zones.
He expects us to help others, speak to a stranger, or meet new friends. In the last week or so, I have done all of these things and people that know me, know that this is HUGE!! I'm normally content to stay in my box. However, situations have come and I have acted on them. It was completely uncomfortable and I was afraid, but I took a shot and talked to strangers. Ive had a week where I have been so nervous and tied in knots that I have wanted to throw up more days than not, BUT GOD is with me. I don't have to deal with fear often and this has been a pretty eye opening week. I have a new sympathy for my friends that do struggle with worry on a regular basis. I'm thankful for the reminder in 2 Timothy 1:7 that says
God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.
My life has had several twists and turns in it. Most of those twists and turns brought great enjoyment to my life, but some have been heart breaking. I think sometimes that I wish I could had done without the hard twists, but without them I wouldn't be the person that I am today. Romans 8:28 says
We know that to them that love God all things work together for good,
even to them that are called according to his purpose.
I'm so thankful that God is in control of my life and knows my path because I would just mess everything up. So now at 5:47 a.m., when I should be sleeping, I'm sitting here on my bed talking to God, writing this post and watching the blinds begin to have a blue hue that let's me know that another day is beginning to wake up, and is well with me because of GOD.
I hope that everyone knows for certain that GOD loves them. I am thankful for my friends and family. I am honored to know that people care enough about me to pray for me and look out for me. I'm thankful for contentment in my life and that GOD directs my path. I'm also glad that GOD helps me fight through the moments in life when I want to throw up because of nerves or fear. Trusting him is the only way to truly be able to step out of our comfort zone and see what will come!!! GOD BLESS!!!
